Ya I guess when you look at it you could blame it on me. But when you look behind everything, you made it easy for me to ruin things. You made me push you away and not believe in you, not trust you. You slowly stopped talking to me, you ruined me. I was so close with you, I have never felt that comfortable with anyone. I needed you, I missed you, I still do. I compare everyone to you and how I felt when I was with you. But nobody even comes close to comparing and I don’t know why. You were bipolar when it came to your feelings. When I was with you you could be so nice, so loving, so comforting. But when we weren’t together you would make me feel unwanted and unworthy. Like I was just some toy on the side. Now I keep telling myself that I have moved on, that I have grown out of you. I have gone through many people pretending it is the same. But its not, and I dont know why. What did you do to me?
